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[28 Sep 2005|09:15pm] |
I hate when I go to talk about how Im feeling in this thing and I can't for the life of me describe it. This is my best shot:
ae;oijhrg;oarhga;roiughajreg;oiajergnm;aselrajp;vojmfkjbnsprogaerghdrl;geoti . ugh
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[18 Sep 2005|01:06am] |
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I am feeling like I've come up a little short in the support and understanding department. Someone please lend me some.
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[15 Sep 2005|12:22am] |
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My parents always used to nag me and say that I had better start liking reading because that is ALL I am going to be doing in college. They were so right. Currently I have a million chapters of psychology english and music history flooding my brain. I'm scared it wont all stay there. I wish I had some extra time to write a song but that will take yearssss, actually it might even be impossible. Mhh.
I'd really like to go to NYC in the fall, as well as go apple picking and pumpkin carving and all of that sweet fall shittt. I would also enjoy going to montreal to see lamey and romeo because I miss them, but seriously between work and school I aint got no free tizzle (time).
I am so queer/bad at making decent entries.
farewell!~@#$R@#$%
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[27 Aug 2005|12:31pm] |
So today I am going up to montreal to bring this little lady on the right home...
The young fellow on the left cannot attend because he has to work and this makes both him and I sad, but it will be great to see Jerome and the apartment and montreal, and of montreal so I can't complain too much.
( Ps )
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[24 Aug 2005|06:32am] |
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In approximately a half an hour I will be getting my wisdom teeth viciously and painfully removed from my body. Youchhh. WIsh me luck. Also, if you are a real sweetheart/friend you will visit sometime this week.
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[22 Aug 2005|06:40pm] |
Dear Mom and Dad,
Fuck you, why do I always have to end up feeling fucking pathetic. God forbid I'm not totally enthralled by your shitty plans for me. I don't care about what you want for me, and don't you think its about time you started trusting me to make my own goddamn decisions... thank you so much, now fuck off.
alkrghj;aRJHGA;ORGHA;ORIGHARWO;IGJ;edgfa;iwdgrhjs;eoifg
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[20 Aug 2005|12:20am] |
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Truth is, I'm feeling awful. Maybe its just because of my head and the fact that I can't stop it from thinking too much. Am I thinking too much, or are these thoughts justified?
I feel so all alone all the time.
I would do anything for you.
ugh. I need help.
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[26 Jul 2005|11:48pm] |
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The past couple of nights I have just been hanging out at night with nothing to do and no one to talk to. It wouldn't be that bad I guess, if I didn't live so much in the past. I think about how last summer I would be out right now exploring with tyler, or maybe at the lake house. I have a real problem letting go sometimes. People change and grow out of people, it sucks but there isn't really much you can do about it.
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[06 Jul 2005|10:00pm] |
Gahhhhh I am in such an awkward and uncomfortable place right now and I don't even know why, I'm just fucking weirdddddd. I don't know how to act anymore, even with people that I used to be so comfortable with... and everything is so goddamn upseting when it really shouldn't be. It's just a slump, I'll be okay... but how the fuck do I get out of it?
post script- sorry to those of you I've been weird to lately (not that I really talk to anyone.)
ugh
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[30 Jun 2005|09:56pm] |
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I hate allllllllllllllll of youuuuuuuuuuuuuu, and your mothers for having the nerve to give birth to you.
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[23 Jun 2005|01:00am] |
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Well, it looks as though I will not be going to Concordia, or college for that matter, at least for a while. I am really lost and confused right now. Interstate life is a bad road to travel sometimes because the signs aren't always too clear and I don't know about you guys but I tend to lose my way a lot. Eh.
Things will be fine I'm sure, but right now I would like to take a really long nap and wake up with everything all figured out for me. Haha good joke right?
Okay. End transmission/whining
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[13 Jun 2005|01:49am] |
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Let me just start this off by saying that I really wish Elliott Smith was still around. I haven't been able to get enough of him lately. He was such a genius but I guess he never recognized that.
I am at such an odd place right now. Have you ever just felt completely... indescribable? Lately my head has been overflowing with thoughts and ideas but none of them really come together and it makes me feel so strange.
I want to make music, but I am not creative nor talented enough.
I want to speak my mind about anything and everything, but I am always too scared.
I want to know what the fuck I am doing next year, but I just can't decide.
I want to change things about myself (physically) but I can't/ don't know how to change it.
I want to be more interesting but I was never that captivating.
I just want to sing. For the rest of my life I want to sing. I don't want a desk job with a claustrophobic cubical, I want to sing and dance and perform and captivate. That will never happen though because dreams don't come true for people like me. Besides, I can't even captivate my friends, how can I expect to do so for an audience.
Why, I can't even think of a decent idea for a tattoo. I have been racking my brains forever tryign to come up with a good idea! If you have and ideas or suggestions please comment with them.
I guess thats it.
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[01 Jun 2005|08:34pm] |
Fuck it!
I am out of school next friday. Thank god.
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[29 May 2005|01:18am] |
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I love brett, I love tyler, I love amy, I love jerome, I love bryan, I love kerry, I love matt, I love kevin, I love reese's peanut butter cups, team america ( fuck yeah), rilo kiley, blake sennett for telling me I have an amazing voice, lauren burbank, atv's, graduation parties, little kitties, barties, wileys, I love brett again, montreal, silent hill, leisure suit larry, bouncy shits ( tube of death) , drunk skateboarding alex, horsies, frisbees, only blood will tell, harper, lap tops, long drives, good talks, real people, and brett.
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| My weekend: |
[22 May 2005|11:28pm] |
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RILO KILEY! |
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!!!!! For those who aren't familiar with the band, the person I am singing with is Blake Sennett from Rilo Kiley, my favorite band. There is a whole long story behind that if you want to know you are welcome to ask, but just know that I went to Montreal with Brett, Shelley, Amy and Jerome this weekend, and it was by far one of the best weekends of my life!!!!
<3so surreal
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[08 May 2005|08:50pm] |
I am pretty fucking infuriated right now.
But at least Family Guy is on and I am staying over Brett's house tonight.
"Brigid you are really cute in the computer light."- The best boyfriend ever.
Only 24 days of school left. Thank god.
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[06 May 2005|11:55am] |
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Tonight there is a Harper show at Emelianas in Derry. Its free, so that means be there or be an asshole!
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[28 Apr 2005|03:45pm] |
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Today I slept so long that I was tired when I woke up. The whole oversleeping thing just doesn't make sense to me.
Bart is sitting on the couch arm watching Brett play vice city, he is really into it.
People who hadn't heard from Concordia are just recently finding out if they are accepted in or not, but I still haven't gotten my e-mail. The suspense is killing me.
I want there to be another Harper show.
My live journal entries are so disjointed.
I'm going to see rilo kiley play in montreal and it is going to be a blast.
Now that I am actually up, what should I do with the rest of my day?
PS- Would you rather:
1)- Get drunk with Bill Clinton.
2)- Get into a fist fight with LL Cool J.
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